Operation Mind Crime II

The more I listen the more I like. They have balls doing a II. Even for the $$$$$. I doubt they needed it. The recording is better quality and it trys to feel the same , the songs are similar after 16 or so years later. They did good. Tate is wild. His voice is wild. DiGarmo's Guitar playing was real good on the first one. It was hungry and had bite. (what ever that means). Scott's Drums were better on the first one.

Operation Mind Crime II

The more I listen the more I like. They have balls doing a II. Even for the $$$$$. I doubt they needed it. The recording is better quality and it trys to feel the same , the songs are similar after 16 or so years later. They did good. Tate is wild. His voice is wild. DiGarmo's Guitar playing was real good on the first one. It was hungry and had bite. (what ever that means). Scott's Drums were better on the first one.

People

So -

At work I deal with a ton of people. Everyone knows me and has to walk by at 8AM.

"Hi Jim"
- "Good Morning Debie"

"Hi Jim"

- "Good Morning Joe"

"Hi Jim"
- "Good Morning Sofie"

"Hi Jim"

- "Good Morning Gabe"

I do this till 10:30 am.
I have done good with it.

I sit next to a fax machine with big sticky notes that I put on it saying that the paper goes face up. For years now I will still say in a nice way that the paper goes face up.

Next to the fax machine is a printer. There was a very slow one there and everyone complained. We have a very quick one now. Now it is always out of paper. All of the Partners sigh in disgust when they come over and it is out of paper. The paper is 2 feet from the tray that has to be fed. I do not want to hear your sigh that it is not filled.

It ends up being respect for the human you are working around. A closed-in building might change someone over a point of time. Yesterday was a beautiful day and when I walked out at 5PM - It was ... magical. It smelled good it felt good.

I do not think I am doing the best I can. For me or my (smile) family. Transition is hard.





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Errrrrr -

You hurt the ones you love the most?

I have not thought this way in a long while. Today i have some time to think. ( or so I think I do)

I do not hate anyone I can think of. ...............

I have not thought about the question of people hateing me. I can not spend my thoughts on that. I would freak out. I do take stuff in automatically. That is enough.

I do hurt Lisa (emotionally) more then anyone else. She grew the skin. We are still a we, so I think that is a good thing.

I talked to 2 of my best friends in the past 2 days that I never get to see. Ralph and Col.


Dr X - “If their your good friends you would see them more.”

Jim - “ We are such good friends that I just know we will all ways be there”

Dr X – Yeah?

Jim - Yeah!.... ?

Jim – We are getting older. Makeing things happen these days does take a while. Ralph said there is a big back yard. His kids are ultra cool and I think we will all end up bonding again/seeing each other more often.

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R&C seem like friends from a different life time. They are. I never see them but I would do anything for them.

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Does it have to do with memorys of times we had in the past? I sometimes think that.

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When I was 15...16? 14? I remember yelling at my mom and hitting a door. She was trying to tell me my ideas and thoughts would change as I got older. I hit a door and while very angry saying something like "I will think this way forever".

I don't remember what we were fighting about. I know now I was wrong. It is a happening that stayed with me.

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Lisa had a Breast Feeding class last night. Sounds rough. Constant feeding. I do believe that Mom’s milk is the best. Lisa has the best part and the hardest part of all the baby stuff. I hope to be the perfect support person/ father/ husband. I have to keep in mind that Lisa is doing the stuff that I could never do. I think she will be a natural with our child.

I am really looking forward to seeing Sophia/Sofia.

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The Baby’s room looks great. So mellow and baby like.
I hope I will be a good dad.

This is a HUGE step. It is the biggest one I have ever taken. It is happening because it is a we thing.
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People

Did you ever just not like someone for no reason. There is always a reason. My reason for this one person is he always looks angry and does not ever even try to smile.

A Smile is worth a lot in my book. At least try to be happy. Pass around good stuff.

It aint eazzy - But it sure be fun?

I am getting so excited about the (she). Lisa is ready to get her out . When she is ready to come out of course.

We had an ultra sound yesterday. I said I would be back at work at 9:30. They were running very late. Our Appt was for 8:40 - At 9:15 I left Lisa so I could get there. I took the elevator , walked 2 blocks . I thought to my self "What the FUCK are you doing".

I must have a problem if I am going to leave my wife and first kid's ultra sound. THAT is fucked up. I guess I have a work something problem.

I did run back hoping I did not miss the whole thing. I did not miss it. I am very Happy i didn't.